everyone needs to face their demons. you become a better person once you acknowledge what it is thats holding you back from becoming a better person.

so here.
in my attempt to become a better person, i share with you my insecurities, my problems, my issues, my inner bullshit.

mind you, this is scary to me. but this post will continue to grow as i learn and list more and more about the stupid side of my self.

[in no particular order of importance--only the random workings of my mind]

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shit. i know its unfair but after reading through my growing list of juicy insecurities, i realized that i dont want to share so much of myself after all. i just now deleted it.

i'll try and be a better person tomorrow.


[ EDIT ]
here we go again.
slowly but (hopefully) surely:

1. its easier for me to open up to strangers than it is to those closest to me
2. im stubborn to the point where ive been told im ignorant. but i dont believe that.
3. i have the tendency to change my entire persona depending on who im with at the moment
4. i care about what people think of me. a lot.
5. i dont see being a mother in my future anymore
6. i dont see having a family in my future anymore
7. i dont excel past mediocre, in anything
8. im a compulsive liar
9. ...