road rage

cash ruins everything around me

today i drove the 30-some minute commute to work completely aware that i had no gas. i planned on filling up during my break after id buy myself a delicious strawberry-banana smoothie, but prior to making that much anticipated trip, i checked my bank account which shot my day to hell. my 30-some minute commute turned into a 60-some minute commute as a i drove home going 40mph from another 10am-7pm day with nothing in my system but stale chewing gum from the morning. i cant tell you the number of people's days i ruined by driving so slow.
why is everyone in a rush anyway? gas is expensive! slow the fuck down!

i need a job, no joke.
this lack of cash is taking a toll.

[ EDIT ]
i like to push my luck, but today was one of those days i pushed far to hard.
i attempted to drive back to work on 'e' stopping at a gas station on the way, but alas, my car died just as i was about to exit. i already was $10 negative in my account and i borrowed $10 to put in my tank, but that $10 had to be put towards the tow truck that came to put just enough gas in my car for it to start and transport me to a gas station, where i had to put another $10 in my tank just to get me to work, bringing me $20 negative in my account and owing $85 worth of overdrawn fees.

not a good day.

currently

watching: flight of the conchords
avoiding: unpacking my room, and ive lived here for more than 3 months already
the estranged bf: is on a cross-country road trip
i miss: the fily house
i also miss: college
im itchin: to dance
im also itchin: for a tattoo
im in need of: money
im too lazy: to work for money

aaand DONE!

still pretty amazed..

4 years: too long, but too short

butterflies

my photographer

my reasons for graduating

hi! i have a BA in art history administrative studies!

EY HYNA

finals, for the last time

these next 2 weeks marks the last 2 weeks of my entire school career. its bittersweet, and i find myself thinking about it more and more as the days count down. i dont wanna grow up.. no sir.

here's my last checklist:

spanish 4
[x] powerpoint presentation
[x] composition 5 rough draft
[x] 1-40 workbook pages [didnt even have to do these bitches!]

art history 192
[x] watch rear window
[x] powerpoint presentation
[x] 10 pg paper [ended up 13]
[ ] read/write journal (pgs 1-100)

internship program
[x] 5 pg paper

work
[x] street team research
[x] marketing
[x] set up exit interview

909
[ ] write thank yous [long overdue]
[x] get gifts
[x] shop

etc
[x] graduation pictures
[x] send announcements
[x] take ju's pictures
[ ] make grad leis


this friday is 909's banquet. im saying farewell to the people i danced with my first year on 909, 4 years ago.

shit, im so sad right now..

back to spanish

faimkills

i am never constant with this thing..

its fun going over my previous posts after a long break from writing--it really brings me back. im fighting myself from editing some and deleting most. but its interesting to see whatever possessed me to right such things in those moments..

anyway.

my favorite artist, FAIMKILLS, is getting radio play today!



keep an ear out from 3-5pm during The Bat Hours program on KUCR's 88.3

they'll be playing "How to Kill a Dead Man"--a remix of 3 Portishead songs. if you're familiar with the band, you'll notice how the editing is geenius.

the song is up on my myspace page
or you can listen to it along with other Faimkills work here

thank you. see you soon.

wrap me up

press play
and play again



one on a one way road
alone and lonely
to the left: ruins
exiting insanity
broken, and broken again
three times too many
the roads too windy
just get the fuck off
leave it
burn it
breathe
in
ex
hail
the driver
or do something about it

what in the world?

and the results are:



son of a bitch. i dont know if i should be disappointed or proud.

let me explain (from the bottom up):

spn3 - C- is failing, so i just barely made it. i definitely would've aced the class if i didnt score -50 points for attendance. attendance taking is so elementary.

ahs181 - bullshit. i thought i did best in this class. it was the only class where i felt confident on the midterm and the final. fuck you.

ahs171 - i sure hope a D is passing. this is the class where i fell asleep during the midterm and ended up writing my professor a note about why my test was so shitty.** but i felt decent about the final. i thought i did better than a damn D at least.

ahs147 - this is the class where i didnt even take the midterm!** i studied just the night before and the day of, and as i was walking to the classroom, i took a detour to my car and went to the hospital instead. ive been meaning to go to the hospital anyway (it was around the time i slammed my head on the ground).** luckily i had that accident cus i completely took advantage of it and used it as an excuse to get me excused from missing the midterm. the next class lecture, i presented my dr's note to my professor. he handed it back to me, smiled, and said "dont worry about it. the final will just count as double. hope you're feeling better." i really dont understand how i ended up doing the best in this class seeing as how i didnt study till the night before. i work in weird ways.


its 6:51 in the am and ive already posted 3 times within the past hour or so.
goodnight. or morning.


**mentioned in previous posts

1095 days

today, 03.27.08, would have marked 3 years.

happy would-be anniversary?

out of those 1095 days together, we probably spent 95 or less of those days apart. its a lonely desperate feeling being alone and single for the first time in 8 years (with him: 3 years; with previous bf: 5 years; between the two: 2 days). he became my routine, my agenda, my life.. not just part of it. he was it. and to go from that kind of normality and stability to complete insanity is harder than one could ever imagine.

weird how we're still celebrating today. but thats what we are.. or, were.. a weird couple. not your traditional pair. which worked for and against us. and is still working for and against us.

[rock the bells 05]

us at our first rock the bells.

when times were easier.
when times were right.
when times were happiest.
us surrounded by the music that brought us together.
the first instances of true love.
when we fell in love.

:(

im trying so hard not to hate life right now.

paid break

..chyea. i wish.

update #1: PAID DUES

so this past saturday was my second time working an event for Guerilla Union. right after failing my final, i headed straight for the NOS Events Center in ghettodino. i kicked it in the box office for half the day where i was widely entertained by the most random shit (think drunk/drugged up girls too weak to walk or stand only at 2pm, divas-and-their-dogs drama, and a real-life my-size barbie doll flaunting her flat ass and huge bazooka boobs, to say the least). i was disappointed about missing POS and busdriver. but luckily i got to see half of living legends' set and all of sage's. sucks that sage's set was kinda boring this time around.

i used to be the one right up front, sweating and vibing to the music, gettin pushed over and elbowed by the crowd, gettin high off of second-hand weed, smelling the nastiest BO, dealing with super tall guys and annoying girls, struggling to take pictures, jumping around and losing my breath while singing/rapping, etc etc. now im watching all that from the backstage. i still cant believe it. i miss being down there--the feeling of being in that crowd is like no other, but experiencing the other side of it all is so surreal. i didnt take my staff wristband off for days.

update #2: SPRING BREAK

finally! fuck! it seemed like FOREVER! only one more quarter to go (hopefully).

this break, im hoping to accomplish a lot, even though its only a week long and already midway through.

in no particular order of importance

[X] clean out garage
[X] work on ultimate brawl 8 (needs its own to do list)
[X] organize laptop
[ ] download music
[ ] fix ipod
[ ] pack
[ ] donate/sell clothes
[ ] visit LA (cus im too broke to shop)
[ ] workout
[X] go dancing
[ ] go dancing again
[ ] and again
[ ] snowboarding
[ ] six flags

join me, will you?