restless

schools a bust, and we all know that shit. it wasnt out of frustration, stress or laziness that almost convinced me to drop out, but the idea that i was wasting my time learning shit that i coulda taught to the damn class myself. i knew i could be doin something more beneficial to my career and myself rather than memorizing matrices or figuring out "why its wrong to manipulate and deceive others" like it isnt obvious already (business ethics is an oxymoron btw). yea, droppin out is a common thought in every student. but more so for shits and giggles. to me it was serious talk.

and thus, my new york dreams were conceived.

but not until today did i actually do some researching of what it'll take to seriously survive in the city and stop pretending that im gonna have the perfect "carrie" life. even though i wanted it more than anything, i was scared to shits (which is what prevented me from searching in the first place).. and even more so after hours of searching for cheap apartments, transit lines, and even safety tips. if it werent for my dead battery and the birds' chippity-chirpin outside my window id still be looking. but at least now i know where i stand. and ive never been more driven in my life.

in my relentless search to find anything under $800, i came across these two studios. which are both over $850.

option a) EBBETTS FIELD


option b) PATIO GARDENS


so assuming i find a job(s) that pays $25 an hour, work 8 hours a day, 5 days a week, i can afford one of these cute studios with some cash left over for food.
or shopping to decorate the space.

wish me luck :]

and if you have any suggestions, by all means, share that shit

r.i.p.

my high school espanol tres teacher passed away the other day. insane.
the obituary:

Brigham Vargas-Murillo, 35, passed away peacefully June 25, 2007, at his home in Adelanto. He was born May 12, 1972, in Torrance. Brigham wed Laura Perkins on May 6, 2006. He was a dedicated Spanish teacher at Silverado High School in Victorville. His dynamic personality and passion to have a positive influence on the lives of his students, colleagues and friends will be greatly missed. Brigham is survived by his loving wife, Laura; father, Jose Vargas of Costa Rica; sister, Elieth of Victorville; sister, Pryscila; brother-in-law, Marco; godchildren, Mario and Bianca of Costa Rica; father-in-law and mother-in-law James and Carleen Perkins of Whittier; many friends and his three boxer dogs, Papas, Zoie and Titan. Brigham will live in our hearts forever. Visitation will be from 4 to 8 p.m. Thursday at Kern Memorial Chapel, with a rosary beginning at 7 p.m. Funeral services will be at 1 p.m. Friday at St. Joan of Arc Catholic Church. Kern Memorial Chapel is handling arrangements.

sometimes you gotta let go, close your eyes, and let it crash

school's done THANK GOD. i love being home and not having a damn thing to do. its comforting kickin back and watching the golf channel with mom n dad, even though id rather be watching a top model marathon or HGTV. but its back to school in exactly one week for a full course load. no choice. and i shouldnt complain either. i got plans and i need to stick to them.

went disco dancing last night again. it was fun. if fun means a bust. for as long as ive been drinking, ive never done it for the sake of suppressing my emotions. once a relationship has that kind of effect on you, you know its time to take a step back and engage in some psychoanalytical investigation on your bathtub floor while the water beats out the alcohol from your skin.
never again will i/can i do that to myself. and i can always depend on my pride to hold me back.
the whole night didnt go to waste though. i still enjoyed myself plenty. having the usuals there as well as some new friends and also meeting a ton of interesting people made my night.

listen to: angie stone's i wish i didnt miss you anymore.
when people ask what song best fits your life right now, i never know what to say. i had this song up on my myspace just because i fell in love with it when i saw it being put to moves as super galactic's finale piece (get it, amador!). its just by chance that this song became so appropriate for right now.

on a less-emo note, here are some things im looking foward to:
-alan's 21st cocktail party in LA
-my very first cabinet meeting for 909
-dads birthday
-having time to finally complete my to-do list

hell week

finals can suck a big one. these past couple days have been a beating on my brain and body.
to help me get through the all-nighters:

music: rage against the machine
energizers: starbucks, and the ultimate necessity, chocolate!

this time around we chose dove and in every wrapper, you get to feast your mouth AND your mind. my favorites:

sexy

sometimes it's as simple as that

perfect

two bitches down, one to go.

support your local dance team

seems like all i post about is 909. oh fuckn well.





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